Is wanting to die because you are seriously ill suicidal?

There is no such thing. You are most likely Gluten and Lactose intolerant! This is a chemical reaction in your body. Eat dark green and red veggies and eat lots of fruits (the dark reds are the best).

Also, check if you have any Amalgam fillings in yout teeth.

Do everything above and for a long time. A lot of your disorders will vanish and as a nice side effect, you'll lose all your fat.

A little sports won't hurt and going for a walk in the sun is nourishing too.

Any God you believe in may bless you ;)

ALWAYS WITH LOVE