You think about women you look at women you are what you call attracted to women but when you think about having sexual relations with a woman it kinda grosses you out Am I a lesbian or not?

Stop and think what exactly you are attracted to? Are you attracted to all women or just certain women with certain attributes? Do you feel that you can have a meaningful relationship with a woman? If you are disgusted about having sex with a woman, do you feel the same way if a man was to pleasure you in the same way? You may be suffering from a psychological barrier where you were brought up thinking sex was dirty and gay/lesbian sex is disgusting.

Seek help! Talk to a psychiatrist to allow your mind to be free of the ill thoughts that sex is bringing you. Then go live your life happy! --Or, you could try new things out. If you don't like them, stop doing them. Pretty simple. (and as of now, i would sa you're bi-curious.)